Even if I try my best to get stuff done, and actually set aside time to do that stuff, I always make the wrong choices when the time comes. Or I'm "too sad" (or some other lame excuse.)
This severe procrastination can go on as long as the project exists, only for me to burn myself out trying to finish it last minute.
I often find myself baking cookies at 1am rather than working on that admissions essay or cleaning my room or (insert thing you need to be doing, but instead you're reading this.)
I'm a smart girl, I know how to do things the right way and on time, but I just don't. I make poor decisions, and I always promise to make the right decisions "next time". You probably know this already, but "next time" never comes. That's procrastinating procrastination! It's a black hole.
Then, as if a timer goes off in my head, I realize everything needs to be done. Now.
At the same time I realize, that there is a lot of be done. Now. I get overwhelmed, I basically paralyze myself in fear and shame, knowing I should have started earlier, slowly getting angrier and angrier, which we all know leads to the complete deterioration of my being.
Until I have officially procrastinated myself into a pit of procrastination of procrastinating, and slowly the life is sucked out of me whilst I climb out.
In short, don't procrastinate. It basically leads to death.
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